>>3519519I don't want to live this kind of life. I feel like a slave to instant gratification, spending every moment of my free time browsing imageboards mindlessly. I leave the house, only to find degeneracy and mediocrity abound. Everyone seems to have compromised on their dreams. I think lowly of and even hate those who live as slaves to their desires, although I am that kind of person myself. I feel as if I am rotting away, succumbing to some kind of entropy. I can't think properly, my memory is diminishing and I find it difficult to even participate in a basic conversation.
I hate that abandoning ideals is synonymous with maturity. My dreams seem unattainable, but I don't know how to live without a higher purpose. I want to die now, because I don't want to see myself become the person that I hate.
sorry for cringe lol