>>1795514>>1795515Thanks, guys.
Whenever I make posts or comments like this, it's never to get sympathy. I don't expect it, nor do I want it in most cases. I find that the words of others rarely ever affect my way of thinking. That's not saying that I don't appreciate kind words, it's a little more like the words sway me.
I've been told that I'm quit negative, and rightly so I suppose. But often times I think that maybe I'm not negative, maybe everyone else is too positive. My general outlook on life isn't a particularly happy one; maybe this is why I find it hard to care about most things. I can't say I have much of a future, don't really have plans to change that either. Dropped out of HS due to general conflicts with teachers and other students, got my GED afterwards, even went to college for a little bit. But I just kinda gave up in the end and decided I should try to find work instead; the benefits would be immediate in that case.
And so I eventually did, for a while at least. Was put off the schedule indefinitely at job #1, and I quit job #2 because it was unbearably shitty. I manage to make money buy selling things I find, or in some cases, things that I don't mind parting with. This worked pretty well for the better part of a year, but it has come to the point where this doesn't quite work like it used to. So I imagine trying to make a career out of my hobbies or things that I enjoy, but it's all a bit pointless, really. Either because I lack talent, or because I lack money.
I've humored the idea of making money off of photography, but I'm shit at it, and I don't have necessary equipment for a lot of things. Just me and 50 1.4, which works decently well for the things I use it for generally. I used to be big into drawing, wanted to go into comics when I was younger. I grew out of that by the time I turned 18. Art was no longer fun, I loathed everything that came from my hands. My art was going nowhere. I rarely draw anymore.
