>>2828248I wish I could give you a good advice anon, but I'm feeling the same way for a long time and it's only getting worse. The only thing that's preventing me from doing it is that I don't want to hurt my mom even more and to the smaller extent the fear from what comes after. I wish I could tell you it gets better, but I honestly can't. Maybe try finding some hobbies that would at least occupy your mind so wouldn't think about it so much, I personally couldn't find any, but maybe you will. I'm sorry, I know my post isn't of much use, but I will be hoping the things improve for you. Good luck anon.
