>>2828248I dunno about advice, but I can share my story. I came out of depression at the end of college out of spite. Before that I was in a routine of wake up, go to class, come home and watch anime and browse chans and such. No personal hygiene. I did the bare minimum of anything and hadn't had held a conversation of more than a few minutes with anyone but family for months and those were mostly them telling me how much of a fuck up I was. What tipped me off that I was depressed is that I had no emotional response to that at all. I just kind of accepted it.
I got better slowly and after thinking about suicide. I started to treat living as a game and thought that the rest of the world was fucking with me and waiting for me to fail. Something inside me didn't like that thought so I started to break the routine and dull spiral just to fucking show them. Waste of family money? Fuck you, took on my own college payments on a loan (and paid that fucker back and my family quicker than I thought). Worthless? Fuck you, got a job doing server virtualization and am making twice what other people in my major do (was biology but have always loved computers, just thought and was told I was too stupid). Paid for a new car too. Awkward fuck who can't speak to others? Fuck you, got a GF and moved into a new place with her.
I know my way of dealing with this may not be the most sane or healthy, but it got me out of looking at the ceiling fan and wondering things like the following:
>can that hold my weight?>how long will it take for them to find me?>will I fuck it up and struggle for a long time?>how do I face people if I fail? they'll put me away in a nut house gladlyYou'll get though this, I believe in you. Some part of you does only live here, but that's true for all of us. It's why some of us are still here after over a decade, laughing, arguing and just talking with absolute strangers and the most fucked up yet beautiful and human people I've known.
