>>3442394Been there, done that, got out of it.
That whole "self help" stuff with "find the talent/beauty inside you, love yourself etc" is bullshit, just like those who say "just go outside bro, do something cool".
If you've got some money, try to travel and, if you're young enough, study abroad. Getting a fresh start in a different place where noone knows you helps. If you master an appropriate language and/or are willing to learn one, I'd recommend Eastern Europe, where people your age are surprisingly enough really open to people with "original" interests like anime.
If you don't have money, which was my case when I got out of depression, don't find something you love, but something to hate. Something to fight. Engage in that fight, be it by involving yourself in political movements, cleaning nature from trash, whatever, it's your call. For example, I started helping a political movement in Africa by translating stuff for them. Hell, I even ended up translating their correspondence with US Congress lobbyists!
Involving myself in that fight reignited the flame of self worth. I wasn't worthless anymore, as I had a purpose in this world, and that purpose was to fight.
And then, I managed to make some money out of it, went abroad and studied, which helped me settle in a normal, satisfying life while allowing me to both bring more to the movement I work for and meet someone who's now my wife.
There's a way out, anon. Not the one that's advertised by detox smoothie-gulping gurus, quack psychologists or extrovert chads, but there's always a way out. And it isn't suicide, either. Suicide is for fags, it means that the ones who made you suffer won. Can't let these cunts win, after all!
