>>3822399 (resolution ideas)Due to immense stress (regular night terrors and paranoia) that culminated in me losing my job early last year, I completely got off the weight loss train. Now that I've got another job, the stress is sadly back with a vengeance, but I still want to try it again even if it was a huge stress factor back then. I have no clue if it's going to improve my life in any way as I've been overweight my whole life and literally have no personal comparison point, but the objective benefits are real and I know I have the discipline to do it, so I'm just going to do it.
Above all else, I want independence. Good old eastern European me has been stuck in the same old household with the same old controlling-to-the-point-of-insanity parents for more than 25 years now, so naturally and quite embarrassingly I lack the common sense and ability to do anything on my own that others learn as teenagers. I won't know if I'll be able to until at least the end of February as w/o the guarantee that I'll be keeping this job I'm simply too poor to leave, but if I can move out, that'd do me a world of good. It'd make things much more exhausting, but it'd also give me the freedom to do what I want with my life and not have it be tied to people who simply refuse to let me live.
I've also scheduled a psychiatrist appointment just now. Might as well get a better idea of what's up with me and whether medication or counseling can help in any way.
If I can regain control of my life and at least begin to genuinely enjoy it more, I'd love to give a handful of possible interests another shot, specifically drawing, music and simracing as I have decent newbie tools for them already. I'd also love to gain the ability to form genuine connections with other people as right now I lack any innate interest in anyone or anything and I don't want to live with that forever.
Yeah, it's a huge self-indulging wall of text, but if nothing else I want to at least keep myself accountable.
