>>698441i want a lot of things.
i want to create and make stories, i like to entertain. i could see myself act in tv or movies or even those god awful stage plays.
i dont want it for the fame or even the money.. not that i dont need it.
i want to be loved.
but only in the way i know how to love.
i want to know what people are thinking.
i want to be anything other than a complete asshole to get any sort of attention or respect.
i want to leave some kind of footnote that i was here. even a small one.
but these things will never happen for me.
cause i live in this nowhere town, with no opportunities for people like me, in a society that has completely failed itself.
im going to slowly and painfully decay in this horrible place and live a mediocre life and be forgotten before its even over.
i guess i do fantasize about an ending a lot though, but a good one.
or not even "good" but an exciting one.. an ending that feels like it'll mean something.
i was born with a hole inside of me that nothing can satisfy and i have to find whatever the fuck will fix it.
