>>42003388I know. I've been purposely raised as a neet by my BPD mother who didn't want me to "abandon" her. I would be literally locked up in our home or have her regularly call wherever I was studying to make sure I didn't "escape" and that I was still there, and would drive me everywhere, still does to this day. I have several examples of the many ways she prevented me from socializing and kept me to herself, plus giving me everything I ever needed to live a "comfy life at home".
It's only been this year that she realized how she fucked me up but still struggles to change, and even though I graduated and am learning two languages, literally no one wants to hire someone who at almost 25 has never ever worked and has no experience. I didn't even regularly finish HS (I did, but I had to go to an institution where people who failed regular HS went and had all courses/exams in a "fast" way. I did legally graduate and all but it's sort of a meme place. My country doesn't have home schooling, that's illegal, but that's what my mother tried and why I had to finish HS in that shady way when I was 19).
I don't know what effort is, everything was always handed to me, I have a high end PC, every game I want, I whale on mobile games, I have lots of expensive shit, even my college was one that is 20 minutes from home and it's such a joke, you could study for two hours and get a 10.
I don't know what effort or motivation means, I have no experience, I get anxious around people because I only ever interacted with my mom, I'm literally fucked and will never get hired or move forward in life because this is what I am now. That's why I pretty much quit and decided to fully embrace neetdom until money runs out and I die off or something, but I don't have the energy to do even that, sometimes. Nowadays I'll just sit and stare at my monitor, not even wanting to play anything. I'm barely if ever hungry but I still pig out on fast food just because I can, I just want to sleep forever.
