>>45005897Yes. Do that anon. Fuck your country, fuck your "friends" and fuck your family and fuck everyone.
Get the fuck away, shut down every fucking thing, delete any and all way of contacting you. From zero. Fuck, change your name even if possible. Get a fucking makeover too. Cut your hair and dye it like anime girls do when they go through a " important decision" in their life. Get your character development.
That said, that is also easier said than done, but you clearly are in need of this, so you better be spending every single possible moment preparing for this, saving up every cent, getting any and all paperwork you may need ready, looking all over for jobs beforehand. It won't be easy, it won't be cheap, but you need this shit. Godspeed you raging faggot. Become the bravest bird.