>>48576029I'd never wish that shit on even my most hated enemy, fucking hell that's depressing.
I have it pretty good all things considered yet I feel so hollow, when I try to do good productive things it just feels empty, my family aren't the nicest people especially my parents who weren't abusive but neglectful letting video games and TV teach me which in retrospect I did learn more from TV then my shitty school but when your own mother calls you "useless" and let's others do the same on top of not being able to find a place where I belong? it killed any drive I had) I've always been a gentle sensitive boy (I didn't even like dragon ball z because it was too violent until I got older and understood the context, plus I didn't like play fighting, I used to own a mew plushie that had batteries as a 10 year old boy for Pete sake these days I actually like shit like primal and awesome anime fights.), I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, pick fights or gamble but still just because I'm not into sportsball or sweaty men grappling each-other it was hard to make friends or trust people to be dicks and betray me.
now I'm a worthless nerd (not even the smart or talented kind) neet writing stupidly cute and admittedly slightly autistic shit about being made into a fictional fluffy pokemon who goes to the park to have fun with genuine friends at the age of 28 and only started being creative because I don't give a fuck and I didn't want to become anything like chris-chan I'm too self aware and sensible for that I think but still the guilt is there it's not like I have any friends to make fun of me anyway might as well enter into the shame spiral, better that then nothing.
>>48576695unironically 4chan has been nicer to me then any dumb fuck normie site has ever been, when people are nice on here you know it's genuine when people are nice on those sites you really have to wonder if it's just to serve their own egos or virtual signaling/to look good.
