>>34467178Anon, as someone who has been in your situation, let me tell you one thing: FUCK people.
I know it sounds edgy, but what I'm trying to say is that you DONT need others to live a fulfilling life. You are a complete and perfect being just as you are. Instead of viewing friends and relationships as necessary to your existence, you need to acknowledge that they are actually optional. They can enrich your experience on this rock, but they arent needed to have a good time.
Take some time for yourself. You dont have to do something ridiculous like backpacking in India. Just go for a hike for a day. Drop everything and spend a day alone outdoors doing whatever you want. Sing if you want. Stomp around, jump over rocks, lie down on the dirt, do whatever you want. You'll realise that relying on other people will only limit yourself. The key word is relying; never rely on others. Enjoy company, but dojt rely on it.
You're a human being, with an organ offering literally limitlessness: your brain. You are capable of experiencing the world in a way conducive to your wellbeing because millions of years of selection gifted you with this miraculous mass of tissue that confers infinite scope.
I know I'm probably talking out of my ass, but I'm not sure how to put it into words. I would even suggest you read up on biology, genetics, evolutionary theory, neuroscience, etc. All of this learning will make you realise how incredible YOU are, and you dont need anything else to complete or validate your worth.
