>>59421427I am a very closed off person that can somehow fit in with everyone bar the extreme weirdos. I guess that's a positive but I feel that I don't truly belong anywhere. Easy as it may be to make friends, if others approach me first, it just never feels real and I feel as if everyone is just toying with me, which is never the case 99.99% of the time, I know. Most likely because of how I feel about myself. Everyone says I'm dependable and the best over everyone else but I always question if that's true. It most likely is though, I don't know, because I get to be part of conversations that shit talk the piss poor performers and can't help but laugh at them and am compared to them all the time. I feel bad every time this happens but never open my mouth to make a counterpoint because deep down, it's true. I'm not arrogant per se it's that everyone else around feeds my ego, yet I never reciprocate in kind. I may be judgmental but I never wish ill on others unless they want harm on me.