>>20258002She used to talk about feeling "not worthy" and would drop some depressing comments from time to time, i have a rrat on that and it involves not going to university and comparing herself to her sister.
1-Sister is a married doctor
2-She's just a christmas cake with a youtube channel
She doesn't randomly say stuff like that anymore, but i believe she dropped "everything" to become a spoiled otaku, watching anime in her room 24/7 and getting some internet money before joining hololive.
After all, it's well known that a lot of holos were just "broken girls" before joining the company, plenty of them joined just to have friends. 