>>19942273I really don't fucking know now.
I loved her initially from her laugh and cheery smile, I also liked how bratty she acted when she got competitive, and she was sort of an underdog in a sense. What helped me stay was how I somehow ended up Pavlovian Dogging myself into feeling a huge burst of dopamine and serotonin into my endorphins. Whenever she got happy, sad, mad, I just wanted her to enjoy life, I felt happy whenever I saw her in motion, when I heard her joyful voice. I still feel that way, but I've been wondering if I should still member after all this time. I am not a true sanalite if I unmember now, but at the same time, is it ok if I break my streak until she officially comes back? I just want to hear her smile more often...