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Pippa has created a perfect sexual theater for herself. It's actually extremely impressive, but deeply unhealthy. On one side she has chat, a huge number of men who like and/or love her or at the very least find her appealing in a general or erotic sense. There's a lot of both overlap and differences but nobody would be there if they didn't like her in some way. She thrives on this attention and validation, which is natural. She also received a lot of praise from chat and individual members, both general and borderline pornographic. To a former NEET with deeply seated insecurity about her looks and her... well, everything, this must be beyond ecstasy. Even that is natural. The problem begins when you factor in the fact she has sadistic impulses (like ryona) and chat has sometimes expressed masochistic desires. There are literally thousand+ men (and some femanons) who worship her like a god. The chat is a perfect outlet for her sadism. On the other side you have her male collabs which culminated in the uwu guy, who is the closest she has come to a real life Colress. Receiving male attention "in the flesh" so to speak while simultaneously hurting chat on a conceptual basis satisfies both of her desires at once - in a perfectly safe way. No sex is actually happening. No body touches another body. It's all fiction. It's all ersatz activity. There is no commitment, no vulnerability and no submission or yielding. There is no real intimacy either.
Pippa has an obvious problem with the body as such, and thus with sex. Virgin or not, it is clear she cannot handle the actual act emotionally. Either her virginity has began to rot within her and is poisoning her, or her fear/loathing of sex has made her incapable of enjoying it in any capacity. I assume she is absolutely terrified with loss of control, and that kinda loops back into what I said above. What we have here is an unique situation in which a damaged person has managed to create an entire complex structure, an erotic/emotional safe space and private heaven/haven in the same way a legendary NEET does. But while a NEET or just... well guys like us honestly jacks off to drawings and does no harm this to Pippa has devolved/evolved into her dealing with actual people in the same way I see a .jpeg of Anya. An object. An unreality. Fiction. She is using actual people as her #34 folder, and we're all merely .jpeg's and gifs.
She has fallen victim to her ego which we unwittingly nurtured into overdrive, and this combined with her innate solipsism and other complexes. This cannot end well, and won't. And it goes beyond streaming. She has taken a profoundly bad turn and it's only now becoming visible. Calling her "insane" is a meme and bullshit. She is simply considerably more damaged by life and her own self than I anticipated. She is losing through victory. Her success in vtubing is amplifying her worst aspects and nurturing her flawed conceptions of life, people, and her own self. Nothing can be done by us or anyone. I wish her the best, and much luck.