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寝ようと思ったんだけど
寝付けなくて。。
色々考えてて、時間て流れていくんだなとか信じてもらいたくても信じて貰えないことあるんだなとか、
へとへとなのにまだみんなの希望に答えたくて自分の頑張りが空回ってしまってたり、
なんだろう?って、考えてたら2時間経っていた。
一人になるとダメだね。
久しぶりに落ち込んでるしちょっと傷ついてる。
マイクラの夏祭りも本当に悪気がなくて
とある切り抜きを見つけてしまって
私あんなこと言われてたんだってショックで本当に悲しくて傷ついてしまって。
とある英単語で名指しで何度も繰り返しで言われてたの知らなくてたくさん謝ってたの届いてなかったのかなとか
FAQという意味を調べました
別件でも、ツイッターとかで私から急に離れる人がいたり
どうしたら良いのか今分からなくなってしまった。
ごめんねこんなに朝方に。
きっとこの投稿は、消します
メン限の人だけにでも心の内を話そうと思いました。すごく限界まで頑張ってました。
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I was trying to sleep.
But I couldn't.
I was thinking about a lot of things, like how time flies, and how sometimes you want people to believe in you but they don't.
I'm exhausted, but I still want to answer to everyone's hopes, and my efforts are spinning out of control.
How long? Two hours have passed while I've been thinking about it.
Being alone sucks
I'm depressed and a little hurt for the first time in a long time.
I really didn't mean to be offended during the minecraft summer festival either.
But I found a certain clipping.
I was shocked and really sad and hurt that she said that to me.
I didn't know that I had been repeatedly referred to by name in the middle of an English conversation, and even though I had apologized a lot, but maybe it didn't get through.
I looked up the meaning of FAQ.
On another matter, some people are suddenly leaving me on Twitter or something.
I don't know what to do now.
Sorry it's so late in the morning.
I'm sure I'll erase this post.
I thought I would speak my mind, even if only to those who are limited to membership. I was working very hard to the limit.
