>>25309614For me, I'm not self inserting unless its specifically written that way. For example, the Mint request or Mio pregnancy story, I left those with no dialogue or description or almost anything at all for the man's part in the story specifically because I'm self inserting as I wrote them. Those stories are I believe the only two I wrote that have a "happy ending" at all because if I'm in this theoretical relationship, I would want the happy ending for myself and for the girl as well.
My other stories, the non-self inserts tend to have bad endings for two reasons.
Either A) That was the request, such as Marine getting graped, or Nene getting soft tortured by Haachama.
Or B) The request was open ended and I just let my dick write the story. Humiliation is a massive kink for me, probably the biggest one I have. Now sure you can have fun teasing with your partner, I've done it myself with fat girlfriends I've had who were okay with it, but that's not humiliating. Not really. At the end of the day she knows I didn't really mean anything I said and that I think she is beautiful.
But in these stories, such as Choco fat shaming Aqua, I'm neither party. I'm not involved, I have no investment into either character's life. So, instead I get to use them as almost like a vehicle for voyeurism. I'm not Aqua or Choco, I'm another guy in the waiting room watching Aqua be humiliated, I'm the doctor getting to read all of Choco's disgusted notes she wrote. I'm not after the girl having a sexually pleasing experience, I'm purposely after the despair.
You mentioned in the OkaKoro ending that Okayu's cold behavior. For me that's the good shit. The wonderful relationship between Korone and Okayu crumbling and Korone's mental state crumbling along with it. The money shot isn't Okayu doing the abuse, it's Korone getting abused.
I in a real relationship with a real woman would never do any of this shit. I won't even do like gentle verbal teasing if she seems upset at all about it. Nine Months With Mio is the most accurate depiction of what my ideal real life relationship would be like. But in the imagination of writing I can express the "darker" side of things I like and that's what I do with it most of the time. Like right now I'm writing about Kiara and Reine and they are supposed to have a happy ending which isn't really my style so, to fill the personal void of despair from that story, I wrote the fat-shaming fic as a vent. Get my horniness out of the way so that I can give everyone else their uwu soft lesbian desire.
I hope that answers your question and I explained myself properly. I am interested to know if anybody else gets where I'm coming from. I could always start trying to do more "happy" endings if I've really been missing the mark for everybody. I am here to fill requests, after all.
