Man was it just me but the Gura members stream last night just wasn't for me, I just can't deal with RP, never could. I've watched Gura for a year now since I discovered her playing RE Vilage a year ago and totally fell in love with her. I catch like 90% of her streams even though I'm a yuro and she streams past midnight for me. I will stay up till 6am to watch if she streams that long and totally fuck up my sleeping pattern but idc because I love the shark. But that RP stream last night I watched about an hour and half and had to turn it off because I preferred to mod some games instead and I feel guilty af for it now. But yeah my point is everyone seemed to love the meido RP shit but I really wasn't into it, I like Gura at her natural best, not playing a persona. I just like it when she talks about the autistic stuff she does and talks about, her cute weird autistic hobbies and interests. I could listen to her SC readings all day because she just cutely rambles about shit and it's fucking adorable. I really love it. She makes my shitty depressing life feel ok and I just feel content for just the few hours that she streams, she fills that ever present black void inside me with joy and happiness as corny as that sounds it's true. Anyway I usually only donate $5 maybe $10 or sometimes $20, but I'm doing pretty good financially lately so I think it's about time I send her a big tip in her next public to redeem myself, I also have never bought merch yet and wanna buy some because it's the best way to support her, and I'd fucking love a dino plushie if they're not sold out and a fucking nendo would be amazing but pretty sure they sold out now, so where's the best place to buy official merch as a yuro? A year ago I thought all this shit was nerdy af, I remember watching that RE Village stream, watching Gura for the first time being conflicted af thinking wow this shit is gay haha wtf do people really watch this cringe shit? That shark girl is pretty fucking cute though ngl. That was pretty the monologue going through my mind when I discovered Gura lol, now I'm a full on parasocial schizo in love with a shark girl lmao, I watch streams of the JP holos for hours besides not having a clue wtf they're saying and I fucking love it. Like I said a year ago I would have anyone into this shit was a fucking werdoe lol, funny how life changes. Sorry for the ramble post, I'm high af and consumed with guilt for letting Gura down and wanted to get it of my chest. I'm sorry goomba.
