>>58153367Short summary: This is an attempt to share and provide experiences to benefit the poster with difficulties.
It baffles me that insecurity is something we bring so little attention to. It took me years of spirituality to realize I was soo incredibly insecure about my potential and capabilities and seeing everything the same.
Finally, it baffles me that I tried for so long to fix my feeling of inadequacy by making the inadequate "adequate" in my mind.
There is a deeper reason that you perceive some part of you as inadequate in the first place.
If a negative emotion was to briefly be misunderstood, the world would cry. But, if consciousness, were to suffer forever it would be called "consciousness's responsability" by consciousness itself.
Healing the emotion/belief is very useful, however, in lasting peace, as this case shows us, but the method is not operational and it took me many times of serving such an emotion out of love for it to realize I was all along trying to serve a shadow. It does not actually exist.
I advise connecting with nature. The key to all mental difficulties is that. The farmer that lets his crops be burnt by the passing army does not know to love nature as if it was his breath. I promise you that the universe listens to your intentions. It works even better if you try to redeem not only your sins, but the world's trough love.
