>>60627530>>60627736I know, but my big fear is that somewhere in the creative process I'll write something really stupid in desperation that'll get me blacklisted, even if it's something I like. Or that feelings of wanting validation slip in which leads to the same thing (that's really tough, like "Am I actually doing this for myself or am I just going for hearts?" I think the fact that I don't care about likes on VOD comments and don't frequently superchat her answers that question). Like, either way, writing something that would piss off or frighten the person that's posting the prompts would really defeat the purpose. That might be difficult to do to her, though, and it's certainly not like I'm trying to do it.
>>60628627I don't think so. If I were doing it just for that I would be doing what everyone else does, rush to comment on VODs, buy lots of superchats, etc. It's probably still easy to get her attention if you really really want it.
I do like the feeling of someone reading the thing I wrote and at least thinking about it, and for some reason it's important that person is at least cute girl. I really really like the idea of something I write making someone else feel something, hopefully a good or at least interesting feeling. Just screaming into the void or even a crowd of other men sucks, I've done that most of my life. Maybe that's still external validation, though.
