in the last MC stream, Ollie did the legendary Birch tree's cutting talkshow. She talked about a lot of things and some might be heavy stuff. Since she's also said it pretty long in Indonesian, as Indonesian I would like to share the things she's been talking during the stream to which I found it very touching. (* I'm not the best at English since I only learned it trough games and YouTube, so please forgive my errors and mistakes).
Ollie reminded us, she's been doing this for 3 years. She felt the time really flies so fast and all of us really come a long way. She recall the experiences is tough and wasn't lying when she said it nothing but smooth. Amazed and disbelieved that she could do it till now, since it must be tough to whoever it is to be dedicated for 3 years straight.
Ollie also baffled that there's still people in the chat that calling her as their oshi. As she herself can't process the thought. Ollie added, she herself had her bias(oshi) changes as time went on, once it's Taylor Swift, and changed to BTS, and then changed further into Love-Live.
After, the chat in Ollie's stream sent encouraging message like "How many times I must sent you rainbow for you to believe me?", " I've been a member for so long!", "You might not my current Oshi, but you are my introduction to VTuber and Hololive!". Ollie replied She is happy for them even though she can't make you smile today, but at least she's able to make you smile once in the past.
Later, Ollie continued, she's already satisfied with her current position right now. For her, there must be someone who had to took the overshadowed and mediocre role for the others to rise and shine. Because if all of them shines together, there's nothing really special about it. And Ollie will gladly took that role, knowing now Hololive already had that many and still growing number of talents, she would now or later became their shadow.
Ollie emphasized it's not like she's being pessimistic, but realistically speaking it's impossible (to surpass them). Someone said "wouldn't you want to be #1?", which she replied even if she worked very hard to the limit it's still impossible to reach. But aren't you special and unique? Hey, there's someone out there that's way more special and unique.
"it hurts", Ollie said. She's been working extra hard for her projects, collabs, covers and everything else to expect she could gain recognition for all of the time, sweat, tears, and blood just to get nothing as a result. So after all of that, Ollie right now never expected anything in return and accepted the fact she won't get as much recognition anyway.
BUT, She perfectly knew Zomrade won't let her down in all of everything she's been doing, and also that is the end line of her expectations. She just tired of being let down by the reality of her expectation that just goes in vain.
Weirdly enough, after accepting those bitter facts, it put down a lot of weights in her everyday life.
"So if you guys asking what is my plan for the future? I just want to be the "normal" part of Hololive, I'll put myself in the middle, or if it's. necessary I don't mind being in the lower bottom". "one way or another, I hope I still could contribute to Hololive". "Because it(Hololive) saved me and all of the talents that made my day a bright sunshine".
Did you guys know why Ollie stopped being "Kureiji"/Crazy? Because a lot of talents started to adopt their own term of Crazy. That made a lot of people compared them to me and all of it is tiring. She really DISLIKE it, saying being compared is the worst thing ever. So she stopped the Crazy because everything is tiring her out.
When people said "Ollie please don't listen to them" or " just completely ignore them, Ollie", She just can't. She's not that type of a person. She really amazed at the other people that could do that type things.
"Don't misinterpret me, okay? normally I would ignore them all. But there is a time when I feeling down, out of focus, just became mindless, those thing they said always resurfaced in my mind".
"You know? Right now I'm perfectly satisfied enough if I could make 100 or 10 people... or even a single person became happier as they watch me"
Even if I'm not her regular, I always tuned in into her stream when I'm not busy or when I'm working my task at home. Let me send her virtual hug and head pat after all of her contributions, not only in this Hololive community, but also the general VTuber community. Great Job, Ollie! and Thanks!
