>>8206734Ame
I had to move towns when I was really young and I went from having a lot of friends to being the kid that gets bullied for being weird, my dad killed himself when I was really young, I didn't have a relationship with anyone that wasn't long distance until my mid 20s, we broke up and I went batshit crazy, moved away started life anew, went through a relationship with an abuser, then another with a user who ended up pregnant with someone else's kid after making it seem like she was really wanting to work things out. Through all that I've felt pain that was inconsolable in-the-moment, I'd considered ending it all but I didn't and I'm glad I didn't. Now I'm on the path of walking forward from everything because I'm still alive, I can still make choices, I can still meet new people, I can still make things happen in my life, and as long as I don't fucking quit it'll stay that way, I just have to keep believing in myself and improving my lifestyle, my standards, and plan for the future, loving myself before I love another and being happy with what I've got.
