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My life's been spiraling out of control since my best friend died.
I chose to date someone because I felt lonely immediately after but never told him I why I was lonely since I still had many friends at the time. We planned on getting married but I suffer from some mental issue and I started hallucinating and getting seizures which got me admitted multiple times into the hospital. I hid all this from him because I didn't want to bother him with my own issues. Later, I just broke up with him because I really just wanted my best friend back, instead of having to force myself to be with someone who never seemed to care about me the way my best friend had. Since, I've barred myself from relationships but people constantly and consistently harass me about it now; calling me a bitch for not putting out or telling me I'm being too hoity-toity because I refuse to date. I just want to be with my best friend again. I know I hadn't always been the best person I could be around him but even if I tried hiding my true emotions, he was the only person I ever cared about and now he's gone because I was negligent to his depression.
Otherwise, my life is great. The only reason why I'm even thinking about my old relationships now is because my ex has been trying to stalk me and multiple people have been harassing me about relationships lately.
I just want my best friend back. I never feel happy. I just want to hurt everyone because they hurt him. I wish people would be nicer to one another.
Pic because I like baseball and I constantly travel.
