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I needed this thread, because I managed to fuck things up with my crush around 4 hours ago.
We both work as RA's at a school in the northwest. I've worked all year and am not working next year, but she's a spring term hire set to work next year too.
Yesterday, we were on duty together (Basically the people on call, have to be in and around the dorm). She wanted to go to a river with her friends, and so I took the staff phone and said I would handle anything that came up. She left, and in the process of going about my day, I forgot about having the phone in my pocket. So I left the building too, and went on a hike with some friends, where I posted some pictures on snapchat. Sure enough, one of my coworkers sees and tells my boss, who then called me angrily asking why the hell I had left. He also asked where she was, to which I said I didn't know but I thought she was in the building.
So I told her. I told her we needed to cover our bases and figure out how we were gonna cover our asses, for my fuck up. And what do you know, she panics. Her entire living situation for next year is jeopardized by me being an idiot. And, like an idiot, I kept trying to get to her, thinking that I could somehow talk her down.
Turns out, when I thought she was just worried, she was having a full-blown panic attack. Like, a shaking and vomiting panic attack. That I made worse by trying to keep talking to her about it.
So now she hates me. I hate me. Finals are next week, and we're both worse off for it having to deal with this. All because of me. All because I'm an idiot.
Never felt worse in my life. I really liked this girl. Thought I had a chance. Lol.
