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Last year -my junior year- ap classes and ap tests drained me of any energy i had. I also felt really lonely and i had no plans set for my future. i was lost and really didn't know what i would do. My mom had gone back to Mexico and had left us with our sisters. I usually would have talked to my mom about this lack of happiness and motivation but she wasn't there. after all the tests were over me and a couple of friends grouped up and decided to take some drugs to let loose kind of, it had been one of the most stressful years of my life and i was really needy for some type of way to make it worthwhile.
Our friend, also at the time my best friend, had the plug however, he was given laced acid without his knowing, it was cheap and so he bought three for each of us. i dont remember much of that night but i woke up soaked in piss and my sisters yelling at me and crying. i had never felt so tired, worthless, and ashamed then i ever had before. thoughts of suicide ruled over me for a while. i needed someone to talk to, but the only person i would open up to (my best friend) dipped on me, i felt like a cancer, i lost tons of weight because i didnt want to go into the kitchen and face my sisters. i was nothing and i felt it. i called my mom and cried on the phone. she helped me through it. i recovered and got a girlfriend who makes me so happy, i think im going to marry her
my mom really means so much to me ;this candle reminds me of the times i spent watching old 90's movies with her on vhs, we couldnt afford dvd players or cable when i was younger, love you mom, rest in peace
