>>7870066Not the anon you're replying to
Listen I'm turning 21 in April - I'm in the same boat. You say your life has been mundane and you feel as if you could simply walk out and no one care, but have you even begun to thought how you could live such a care-free life to begin with? It's due to your parents truly caring for you and not FORCING you into the real world. I've not been as lucky - I had lost my childhood home to foreclosure, was homeless, had winters without heat, summers without power, and nights of nothing to eat. The point I'm trying to make(and I'm not trying to grandstand here) is that there are people even your age that have been through a lot more bad shit and are still telling you to keep going because we made it through.
I'm not trying to take away from your struggle because we all do in different ways, but you're still young like me and there is no reason to be so tunnel-minded like this. You can make this uselessness you feel go away by helping your family in anyway you can. I for one am essentially my Mom's caretaker(she's a single mother and had me in her early 40s). She's getting older and unfortunately was cursed by glaucoma and is legally blind and has complete vision lost in one eye. Among other health problems, I've found my purpose in life. Which is helping her and eventually I think whenever her clock runs out as sad as it will be, I'll move onto helping someone else in my family that needs it like my Aunt for reference.
I felt completely useless and was feeling suicidal at one point too, because I had essentially dropped completely out of developing my future in society. However after self-examination I figured out that there are people I can make myself useful to. You mentioned your Father being sick? I'd start there maybe that'd help.