>>6578546I don't know if you're still lurking anon but I have gone through the identical pain as you.
My brother-in-spirit as I like to think of him died from a double brain tumour, I watched for 2 years as it ate away at the very being he was, reducing him to an immobile but still loving angel of a man. I'll never forget the last time I saw him, what had been such an elegant and inspiring man was now unable to speak. He tried so hard to coax some words out of his body but he just managed a shrug and sagged in his wheelchair.
The thing that hurt the most was finding out just how much I had apparently meant to him. When I went to a gathering to commemorate him I had complete strangers coming to me saying "You're Fred! Charlie ALWAYS talked about you" some of my hope for the World died with Charlie's passing. Until I myself pass, I just want to live as he would have wanted.
When I next drink I'll raise a pint to you and your friend anon.
