>>7894568I really like the way Maria Franz sings Grogaldr. Her voice is amazing in general but "Traust" in particular is a song I keep coming back to over and over again. It feels like a lullaby. The lyrics are about a mother chanting spells of protection for her son before he goes on an exceedingly dangerous journey he doesn't even want to take. I had a very bitter, one-sided relationship with my mother in the past and even though we're on good terms now, it feels like I gained some kind of nasty scar from the whole experience that will never fully heal. The worst part about it is that she gets frustrated if I bring this up, and says that she's admitted her mistakes, I'm "not a little kid anymore", and I need to grow up and forgive her. Which I want to, she went through a nightmare too, but this constant scorn for the notion that it might still be affecting me feels like it's tearing open all those old scars. She used this sort of shame tactic so frequently in the past that I now find it difficult to clearly understand when and if I've made a mistake, and how serious the mistake is, which has ended up making me extremely paranoid.
"Þann gel ek þér annan, ef þú árna skalt
viljalauss á vegum, Urðar lokur
haldi þér öllum megum, er þú á sinnum sér."
("Then next I sing, | if need you fare,
And wander a meaningless way:
The words of Wyrd | shall be your wards
whichever the road you walk.)
