>>7860672Used to be in the exact same mindset when I was that age and if you want the best advice then it's to live for yourself. Nothing is going to come if you despise yourself and expect pity from others around you. You'll just be a grim reminder for your family and a random statistic to everyone else. You're lucky enough to be born a human that can think a wide variety of emotions and this is the only shot you're going to get of not only feeling pain but genuine happiness. Feel the emotion of becoming friends with a stranger, and eventually asking this stranger to be your partner at life and at first it's awkward but you start growing attached and finally find love. Feel the emotion of watching those around you succeed with you. Feel happiness that "thank god I was a fucking idiot going through a phase but I decided to stick it out"
Like me and other anons said, we all go through this and it fucking sucks but you're 20, next time you wake up find something and stick to it. I remember telling myself one day that I might as well try to explore the world and travel to many countries and explore the world and see what it has to offer before I go and I did just that. I'm studying to be a polyglot in my free time to achieve my goal, learned 4 languages and I'm learning computer programming in school since I love how I can make whatever I want in a computer.
Do whatever seems like a pipedream and lay a foundation and from there you'll find a purpose in it. I'm probably messaging you because it feels like I'm comforting my older self of his trauma, a time where I felt like I didn't want to climb the stairs because I felt scared and stuck. If you don't want to let someone down then just stick around in ten years, look up at the sky and say "I'm here", you'll make me and other anons satisfied that you're in the present.
Rappelles toi anon 君だけ旅路, cuidate por favor.