>>7563286I think you're too smart for your own good, and you need to get your mind off of the things poisoning you mentally. Unplug your computer from the internet, if you can't do that because of work then uninstall steam/bnet and use internet explorer instead of whatever browser you normally use, filled with bookmarks and time wasters. cut it out for a month, the things that youre undoubtedly addicted to. I'm in your position and got out doing what i recommended you, but since the quarantine im back where I started. you have the rest of your life to worry about this stuff, but you only have now to be young and free. remember that there are billions upon billions of people who are just as self aware, open minded and human as you who never got a choice in the matter. let go of what you know is holding you back my friend. you most likely know what it is.
>>7563418it sounds like you're in autopilot, which is pleasant. but you must beware - time is now your most precious resource. years will start to fly by if you dont make an effort to enjoy the time you have on this earth. your only problem right now is letting it all slip through your fingers.
>>7563727I have no words. Look at the most likely consequences of staying. Be honest with yourself, do you prefer that? You took a sacrifice for the ones you love, its only been six months. There will be more chances as time goes by. The world is in a panic now, but trust me there will always be time to reconcile the problems of today. All I can tell you is to hang in there, trust me.
>>7563955that sucks, I'm sorry for you man. Me and my family have gone through the same, it's been very surreal. I have to say though, at least in my case its been a rather entertaining time, getting to see my town like this is most likely a once in a lifetime thing, so I'm doing all I can to enjoy it. please study though, you only have so long before its too late if you stop now.
