>>7860672If you're not trolling and you're still checking this thread, please read this.
The pain and suffering inflicted on your loved ones by your suicide would be infinitely worse than all mistakes/letdowns you've ever had with them combined. It would in no way be a better solution. You may not see it, and the people in your life may not show it, but you are loved, Anon. Even through all the mistakes, the letdowns, etc. you are still loved deep down. Do not let the hardships in your life you face presently be the basis for how your future will shape out. You are absolutely worthy of a loving and happy life. And I'm sorry if you're not religious Anon, but I implore you to have faith that God is with you at every moment and wants nothing but love and happiness for you. Please don't misinterpret. I'm not here to preach, but I just want you stress to you the love that is in your life from everywhere, even when you can't see it.
I will be praying for you, Anon.