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The woman I'm crushing on is in a relationship with someone else.
Earlier this year she split up with her ex after a 17-year relationship (she's 32). I'd had feelings for her for years. I saw it as a sign of fortune. I got closer to her and we got on well. Because of work, I had to go to the city where she lived, so she offered me a place to stay. Admittedly in the guest room, but it's a lot of progress for me.
I was worried, however, when I learned that she was seeing someone else. But as she explained to me afterwards, it was more unofficial and she wasn't thinking of making it official. First because this guy is one of her ex's best buds. Then because she didn't want to get back together right away, she wanted to live for herself for a while. And also the guy normally lives 500 miles away, not ideal for a healthy relationship ...
I reassured myself that I was taking my time. To be able to get even closer to her without rushing her.
And then fate decided to backstab me. Another guy I know too. Not a bad guy per se. It was love at first sight, literally. He too came to town to work. He too came to sleep at her place. They get on well and have a lot in common. They're going to spend a few days in the mountains together.
And I cry like a wreck and my heart bleeds at the thought of someone else receiving her love instead of me. I've spent seven months of effort, reduced to nothing in a few weeks. I'm in pain, excruciating pain, a hollow void in my body. It's as if I've been chasing a chimera that's vanished.
I can't think anymore, totally overtaken by events, and I'm supposed to go to her place as if nothing had happened. I don't know what to do anymore. I've hoped so much, dreamed so much. It's as if heaven has denied me any kind of happiness. I've got nothing left but to sit in a corner and wait for death to take me.
