>>7467755Anon, I was at almost exactly where you're at five years ago. Down to realizing that I loved her far more than I loved myself. Can't guarantee that your path out of hell will be the same as mine, but it's going to feel like utter shit for a long time. That being said, dig deep dude, find that thing that got you fired up as a kid and pursue it, chase it out of hell and then do it for yourself. For me it was music, results may vary.
Good luck, I'm rootin' for you. Really is a beautiful thread in here.