>>7860672A year ago anon I was in a very similar situation at 19.
>no job>not in school>obese>no friends>just diagnosed with disease that would require months of surgeryNow:
>lost 80 lbs, healthy >saved up money from jobs>in college working towards an engineering degree>socializing more>disease is cured and I paid off all the bills (~4k in total)>independent It may feel like hell now, but you CAN change. The world is more receptive to your will than you think it is, and if you apply yourself and think in a positive manner you can achieve what you desire.
FURTHER AND MOST IMPORTANTLY: Do you not owe it to yourself and others not to die? I don't mean this in the "you have so much to live for, people love you sense", I have been in a spot where that wasn't really true, I mean it in the sense that if you kill yourself now you will die as an embarrassment. You are at rock bottom, there is nowhere to go but up from here.
If in a year when you are self sufficient, driving, and working and you still feel like offing yourself go ahead, but only after you've made changes (and at that point I can guarantee the urge to off yourself will disappear).