>>7860923what do i do when i have no one who cares> what difference does it make if all my tomorrows are one endless today? i looked back at today, and realised that every single one of my activities today was possible without me, i just happened to be there. theres no one who would care if i was gone, not in any way that means anythiing. honestly the mutilated body is the only barrier for me, that and the social stigma would probably make my father very miserable, just waiting for him to pass away, or his alzheimers to get worse so he doesnt remember the son who let him down every single time. honestly i hope my parents pass away peacefully in their sleep so i can just leave too. im not built for anything and anyone, all i do is try to make everyone happy, and all i do is make people miserable every breathing second of my life. i dont wanna hear anything i dont wanna see anything i dont want anything i want nothing can i just go