>>7947758I feel you anon. I also am entirely isolated from society, family, anyone really. I even grew up around here and literally spend days, weeks not interacting with anyone for more than 5 minutes. Its fucking miserable.
But you're about to have a clean slate, so things might pick up quite a bit. Unsolicited advice; its a new city, you can literally be and do whatever the fuck you want without consequences. You can leave the old habits behind, try different ways of living and interacting with people. Fuck the shit life, build habits that increase good times. Get a job in a team environment (landscaping, kitchens etc) that spends lots of time together. Pick a cafe and go once a week. Join a social meetup(.com) and give it a chance. I hate sport but climbing is super chill and it allows you to do something entirely on your own (bouldering) without the expectation of interacting with others, but other solo anons are doing the same thing, so its inevitable that you interact somewhat. Anything that involves regular, repeated attendance and action, keeps you focused so you don't freak out and regularly being around others brings down barriers and forces casual interaction. You got this anon, go slow.
