>>7650753From that point, I thought we were all good. But when I messaged her the day after asking to meet up if she's feeling better, she didn't respond.
Next day she finally decided to respond, saying how she thinks this isn't going to work out, and that it's over. At that point I started panicking and apologizing for shit I have and haven't done. Long story short, after hundreds of essays explaining why I did what I did, what I felt about her, why at first I acted distant and then wanted to try again, she broke it down to me, she already slept with the dude, literally 4 days after we slept together last. That shit devastated me, what kind of a person does this, after a 1.5y long relationship where I supported her to become a better person?
She told me I was the one who fucked everything up in the last few months because I acted distant and cold, without ever realizing what lead me to that behavior was her unwillingness to show she can spend a day with me without ordering something alcoholic and getting drunk literally every single time. After that, she just blocked me on everything.
I forgot to mention that she didn't enroll into school this summer either, so she's about to be 20 without a HS diploma. And the problem wasn't that she drank every time we met, and we met a few times a week, but she got drunk every single time, if not drunk, then tipsy. She also has a xanax addiction, and I tried getting her off of them for a straight year.
Now I've been feeling like shit for having wasted a 1.5y with someone who never appreciated what I was doing for them. Every time she'd get drunk and end up somewhere, I got in a taxi and went to get her. She cost me my finals last summer, and my summer job. I still forgave her. She'd embarrass me a lot of times, and she is generally unintelligent. Now I'm not missing her as a person, but I'm ruminating over the nice moments we had, and over the fact that this was a hard sucker punch.
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