>>6560916So, first of all, I want to say congrats OP for setting up this thread. I really do agree that /wg/ is sort of a safe-haven among the boards were some of us can just be a bit more polite and open in the way we communicate among each other, and its nice to have somewhere to vent/discuss. Ok, enough ball licking.
I've been in a weird head space, more than usual, where I have lost my real drive. The drive that used to keep me up for days, because I was completely invested in some mundane project, which I had just discovered I liked and wouldn't stop until my body would not let me continue. There was a small space in this last year or so where it got better. I would function mostly during the day and sleep during the night. But now I have plumeted head first back into the same routine. I am now on day 3 with now sleep and I feel like a drone whose been unplugged and waiting for its inevitable crash. I sense that its because I'm looking for a new drive in places I've lied myself into be leave I will find, like on one of these boards, or somewhere else on the internet. I just got re-enrolled into college and I was hoping that it would somehow jump-start that notion of personal fulfillment, but the only thing it has done is put so much more stress into my life, and given me more shit to procrastinate. My story is not the craziest, but it really took some fucking rough turn in these last few years. I had some of the most aggressive fights that I've ever had with my family. I was harassed into rehab. Twice. And now I have this fucking college debt on my ass. I'm really tired. And not in a suicidal way or anything, ad least not consciously.
I think what I'm trying to do at this point is to find someone who adleast is going thru something similar. Not for advise or anything, but just to know that someone else, a living being, is going thru something similar. And to let them know their not alone
