>>6603155Ugghhhh.... Yes, yes I do. The realization that your own horrible actions and dysfunctional relationships have caused the pain and suffering of your children... and in turn caused them to create their own horrible relationships and fuck up their own children.... fuck man. Heavy shit for cartoons.
This is why I refuse to have kids until I can fix my own shit. Which I am closer to now than ever.... but it is a LOOOONG hard road.
OP:
Advice from a 30 y/o.... It does actually get better, but the thing that changes is YOU not the world. Perspective on life isn't something your brain will truly encompass until you perceive it for yourself.... and for me it took until I was 28 to *really* start to see it. My 30's are starting, my career is getting traction (*crosses fingers* don't fuck it up, don't fuck it up, don't fuck it up!) and I'm just now learning how to create and keep positive, loving people in my life, people WORTH having around (Pro Tip: most aren't.). A computer screen isn't a friend, a video game isn't a friend.... "screen time" actually made my depression WORSE. Find one or two good friends, hang tight and spend more time outside -away from phones/videogames/TV etc.
Want to know what made it better? Little victories! Every time I thought about the things that made me feel bad, I'd always try to throw in a positive comment to myself, like "Hey, at least I have shoes on."
-Late to a job interview I reeeeally needed? Could be worse right? At least it isn't raining!
-Get thrown out of my apt. by my abusive ex-husband? At least my car has locks on it, and gas in the tank.....
-"Good Guy" Friend took me in while I was homeless (yay!), but tried to feel me up while I'm sleeping (boo!)? At least I can sleep in my car! And I get to keep his teeth that I knocked out (Teeth-0, Bottle of JackDaniel's-2).
Suffering is universal to the human experience, but so is kindness - art - love. Perspective - it helps.
