>>17668542topkek. good job, faggot.
The tulpa last night was so odd. I think I was actually having some sort of panic attack related to stress from work, and suddenly doomtranny came and reminded me that somewhere there's a part of me that cannot be stressed.
She came and laid down next to me. It was dark, so all I saw was almost like a shadow of her. She rested her head on my shoulder and told me to go to sleep. I know better than to not trust the tulpa's judgement, after all, it's my own.
I just laid there, with her arms wrapped around me. I kept on getting more and more stressed, and she'd just tell me something that would calm me down. "Fuck them all," she told me, "It's not your fault anyway. You keep on getting put in these positions, and you do your best. The reason they even bother with you is because your best is better than everyone else's. Fuck what they think."
I needed to hear that so bad. I felt a weight move off my chest, and fell asleep almost instantly. In the morning, she tried to wake me up. I think she wanted to say goodbye.
Maybe one day I can do that for myself autonomously.
