it's hard to make meaningful life changes when you don't even know if you'll be mentally sound enough to be alive tomorrow. I've been flipping wildly between strong motivation and suicidal ideation. When I say suicidal ideation, I mean actually loading my gun and just barely talking myself out of it. How can I make any good decisions like that? I've thrown away multiple good opportunities because I figured it's pointless if all I'll do is take a gun to my head.
>>3969222Me. I have post traumatic stress and it's hell.
