>>3941468I'm almost constantly thinking about leaving this world for the last several weeks. I used a week of holiday to cleanup my flat so people won't have much trouble after I'm gone and soon I'll have another week to finish it. While I was cleaning, I came to conclusion that if you're unable to leave, if you have doubts, it probably means there's something you're still attached to. And I think it's best to not leave, until you're 100% sure, until you're 100% determined. If there's something, then explore it, figure out what it is and whether it's relevant to you.
That's actually what I do, because I realized that I'm not 100% sure, too. I want to know whether there's still something I could be worthy of, or whether it's just a false hope. Either way, I think uncertainty is the worst.
>>3949048I don't know... after I read some Stephen Hawking books and after a lots of thinking, I'm starting to doubt there's anything like that. That oneself exists just in one's brain, nothing more. I kinda wish that would be the case - that after I die, everything will end for me, that there won't be another time or world.
