Bros... I can't fucking take it anymore. I'm giving up. I've been here since her debut. This whole time I thought that every time she must have a good reason, that it must make sense somehow, that she'd make it up eventually. But that moment never fucking comes does it? It's just the same shit over and over and over. You wouldn't let a friend treat you like this, you wouldn't let a family member treat you like this, ffs you wouldn't even let a work colleague treat you like this. So why in the actual fuck is it fine to be treated like this by an oshi? By someone who puts on a cutesy baby voice and says how much they care about you before fucking over for god knows how long to do god knows what and then acts like nothing happened when they come back. Fuck this. This shit is unacceptable. Maybe it sounds cringe but I looked in the mirror today and remembered that I'm a man; I might be a total fucking loser irl, I might have achieved nothing, I might be viewed as a faliure by my family - but I'm still a man. Why in the fuck am I letting myself be fucked around by this woman online, letting myself be manipulated and hurt and then made to relive the cycle over and over just because of what? What the fuck does she have to do offline that is so fucking important that she can't even give us a single fucking tweet or post to reassure us? The only explanation, as much as I hate it, the only explanation that is logically consistent and the most succinct with no discrepancies to explain all of her behavior and what has happened is just that she doesn't actually give a fuck. Fuck this. Maybe you might think this is cringe or mucho texto but I had to get it off my chest. I'm fucking done. I'm a man for fuck's sake, I shouldn't put up with this, this ghosting shit. It's fucking dumb and disrespectful, no two ways about it. Every other fanbase doesn't have to put up with this shit, just chumbuds. Fuck this. I'm done.
