>>6092532not a troll, just a depressed husk of a guy
as for your suggestions, i'd say i've spent more time trying new things than most people. then again, i'm older than the majority of 4chan users anyway. i coded lua for 5 years and got sick of it, i coded C# for about 3 years and got sick of it, i did html and js for a while and finally got sick of programming in general. i've got a bookcase full of books i've read and can't pick up again, a desk full of stuff that i don't even want to look at. started smoking and quit smoking. did drugs, stopped doing drugs. did sports, stopped doing sports. did writing, stopped doing writing. did art, stopped doing art. i can't enjoy a single thing that i do because in the end it's still me doing it, and i hate myself. i hate the way i look, the way i sound, my height, my weight, my past, everything. i just cannot stand my life at all. every single day is worse than the previous.
all this because my parents felt like fucking one night and their rubber broke. thanks mom and dad, you gave me the gift of the worst life i could have. not monetarily, not situationally, not circumstance-wise, but mentally. my entire life has been shit. it's not going to get better, and it's not my attitude about it. my attitude is a non-related variable.
i just want to die. if i had the cash i'd hire a hitman to kill me over Tor.
