>>8123920>I just want to be at peace, I want to not have worries anymore, I want to not care anymore, I don't want to fake being happy anymore, I just want it stop.Sorry anon, but the truth about this is that it never truly ends. No one is ever truly at peace without worries or cares, it's just not realistic to want that. What you can do, though, is learn to manage your anxieties more efficiently and expose your self to the uncharted, unfamiliar and overwhelming situations in small but frequent doses. It does get better and you can find a balance that will make you more content. I'm not saying you will never feel happy/at peace etc, by the way, you absolutely will if you put in the effort to change, but you will never be fully free from them. It's just a fact of life. I say this as someone who was very much like you in my late teens and early twenties - I had social anxiety, depression and full blown paranoia that ended up with me at the hospital and getting put into therapy. I was stuck in a perpetual cycle of thoughts that would prevent me from taking any action, mostly out of fear. It took a long time and lot of hard work to feel truly comfortable and able to deal with ordinary situations without having a melty every night, but if I can do it, so can others. I can't know what your overall situation is, yours problems and whether you even have the access/time/luxury to address them fully, but if you can start forcing yourself to take baby steps where possible, you'll be well on your way to finding what you want. I'm also aware that you might have heard this, or something like it (gotta get out your comfort zone, only you can save yourself etc. etc.), many times from various people, but sometimes there is a simple truth in certain platitudes that shouldn't be dismissed outright. Good luck.