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>Be me
>Crawl out of ground at the crack of dawn to enjoy the morning dew
>Birdcuck grabs and eats me
Fuck my stupid grub life.

I'm about to end it all. It has been more than a month that me and my ex broke up and I still amnot over her. I've been journaling for days to find out she truly loved me but I had avoidant attachment issues, and that because i was raised in the emotionally unavailable household and dry neighborhood. All I've been doing for my entire fucking life was studying and playing computer games on my spare time. I didn't know the isolation was delaying my emotional maturity until i got into relationship with her. I never knew how I should've loved, because I simply never knew how to deal with emotions. I was emotionally unavailable (as i was raised) to her during the situationship, but she perceived it as "mysteriousity", got attached, then we got together. Then I'll just say shortly, the childhood trauma just never let me be vulnerable to her and overtime, the "mysteriousity" turned into "nonchalancy". I never wanted to get things to the end, but i had been doing the completely opposite thing without even realising. She felt I was never authentic to her, she even hinted me to open up by sending relatable Instagram reels so she could reciprocate, but I never did. Now I know that a healthy relationship is built on trust byproducted from the emotional authenticity. Now I heavily regret the way i treated her... God forbid all i wanted was to keep the relationship alive, but it was destroyed by the same immature retard with something he cannot change.
You guys know what the worst thing is? All the discipline, dedication, consistency and hunger of working for my successful life is fucking gone. I used to be unbeatable at my mathematics club at my junior year, (we even met there) and now I have potential to score maximum on the exams, but fuck sake everything has lost its spark. I will go live on Instagram tonight at 4am (gmt +4) and watch something that is completely safe and harmless happening to me. IG: misanthropearchangel. The account will be public.

Is it okay if I carry around pepper spray around everywhere I go? I've started going out and I'm always scared someone will attack, especially when I'm out there hiking alone, I'm scared I'll get ambushed and murdered in the woods by some junkie. Anyone else carry pepper spray everywhere?

Im going to dump some pics/vids from a 6 month long roadtrip I took last year
I recently learned how to make webMs and found these old pics/vids as I sort them I will dump the best ones here

Bitsi Badlands, NM

Westerners can't believe and cope with how fast China is developing. They don't need overt faggotry or Israel worship to brainwash.

Italian motorcyclist got mauled to death by mama bear in Romania bear country.
This is the last photo he took.

Post yours.

Anyone else trundle? It's the most red pilled thing you can do. Keep hikers safe, and keep the trails clean.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6L_EZHPwFI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxRE1T63u9E

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Just as I expected, using a guided mountaineering service was a complete waste of money, time, and effort. I paid over THREE GRAND with the expectation that I would have a chance to summit as long as conditions were favorable (spoiler: they were and I still got turned around). This was the first time that I ever done a guided climb and will be the last. I was hesitant to sign up in the first place after reading mixed reviews online. Well, I should have listened to my instincts because they were right like always.

The so-called "experts" unreasonably prevented me from summitting when I was perfectly capable of doing so. Keep in mind that I have soloed TONS of big mountains where you don't have to jump through bureaucratic red tape beforehand, so it's not like I'm some out-of-shape jerry from the Midwest with no mountaineering résumé to his name.

Did I just get unlucky or are guided services always like this? It's fucking dogshit that I have to write off my ambitions of conquering Kilimanjaro, Chimborazo, Himalayan mountains, and other big peaks that require guides. Whatever. I'll just keep knocking out other bragworthy mountains that you can solo on your own damn terms. Fuck guides.