>>1575607She sounds like a sweet person. Hopefully opportunity will come again soon. Reminds me of a time that I screwed up...
>be me>15>cutest girl at school walks up to me and starts talking>it is awkward, but she seems to like it>she approaches repeatedly over the coming days we get our E-Mails>we write to each other>E-mails get longer and longer between us>next were letters>she sent a letter to me with something that she wanted to tell me>I never got it>we waited and nothing, but we continued communicating>I started to get bullied for having a correspondence with her>I tell her about it and how I did not want for her to be the target of shame and guilt because of me>She ends contact and within a couple of months changes schools>ffw 18>she is married>has a miscarriage>I open up the old channels to offer my condolences>she says to never say a word to her again no matter whatAs it turns out, she loved me dearly (it eludes me as to why since I am not attractive), but in saying what I had said, her heart shattered like glass and was the whole reason why she went away. Marrying and having a child was a coping mechanism, but seeing the sort of reaction I had caused, it seemed to have failed, though the circumstances to begin with were somber.
I did not go out over the weekend, there were horrific storms on Saturday and on the Monday holiday, she was in the big city, shopping. I had lunch with her today, though. I learned that she has very strong political opinions leaning towards the left (and by the I mean the "the only two good countries are Iceland and New Zealand" sort). I hate for her to find that I post on here, despite not being a /pol/fag. /k/ is a place that I often lurk, so this gives a view into a part of my life. A shame really, since she is an otherwise nice person, she likes me, she is attractive... I just do not know what to do. She considers herself poor, but I can afford stuff easily, maybe I am utterly bluepilled on this, though.
